I decide to just go for it last night and put myself out there. Is it scary? Hell yea it is. Do you know what is even scarier? Staying stagenet or not putting yourself out there at all. Having regrets are not a part of my life anymore. I want to take chances rather it is in business or in love. Do you know what I’ve truly learned in the last few days? That I have been hurt badly in the past more than I ever realized. I don’t think I realized how bad until I put myself back out there. I have kept my heart and thoughts hidden for a long time now. I don’t want to scare anyone or any opportunity away. So, I have just stayed distant from it all. Only showing a little piece of my heart to someone I should show more of my heart to them. What happens when you get hurt again? This is the question I ask myself on a daily basis. In business I stepped away for a while too. Do you know why? I sure do because I got burned. I choose to take a different route, and it back fired on me completely. You know what I’ve learned and continue to learn that the only way you’re going to be a success is along the way you are going to make mistakes. Do you know what mistakes teach us? Growth and how to get back up and do it again. And, this time you know what works and what doesn’t. I asked myself last night why I have waited this long to put myself back out there. Do you know the answer? Fear of failing and getting my heart broke. Guess what today was? It was a new one. So, get out there and take any opportunities that come your way. Don’t wait do it today and see what happens.

Where did it go? Why did it leave me? How do I get it back? Does, anyone else go through days like this? I have days and weeks where I have a plan and I’m on it. Where I goal set for the week or the month. But, lately I feel like I don’t have any motivation to do anything. I mean from going to the grocery store, working, or exercising even leaving the house seems like a lot of trouble to me. Not sure if I’m in a funk or if my motivation has just gotten lost somewhere. And, where do I pick it back up at? I read books, and listen to podcast to find my motivation again. How do you handle it? Where do you get your motivation from? And, how do you keep it?

So, I have done as much on my blog as I wish I had. That stops today, no more excuses. My post for tonight is about guilt. Do ever feel guilty? Over things you really shouldn’t.  I run a maid service in town, but have taken a second job at night as waitress. Just, to make a little more money at night. I really have learned that I really dislike it.  I have done a lot of jobs in my lifetime, retail, office work, made jewelry, and now run a maid service. This has to be least favorite job I’ve ever had. But, have learned the older I get not to do things that I dislike, or don’t bring me joy, and that give me a negative outlook on life. Unfortunately, it’s just so hard for me to let a place down. Because, I know they took the time out to train me, and put effort into me. Only, for me to leave them. However, I also know that if my heart isn’t it, they need to find someone else’s who is. Plus, the other thing it put into hindsight for me is, how much more time I want and need to put the maid service. I realized that there is where my real passion is.

So who has troubles facing there fears? I know I do! 2019 has been my year to start doing this more. Don’t get me wrong, some days I’m still scared as hell to do something new. I run a business, and everyday I’m faced with new challenges. A lot, of times I just have to breathe in and out and go for it. I’m not saying it always works out the way you think it will. But, hey at least you went for it. And, worse case you have a funny story to tell. Usually, it works out the way just the way the universe intended it to be.

Good Evening. How is everyone doing tonight? This is my first ever blog. My name is Melissa, I live in Hot Springs, AR. I’m 35 years old and have a beautiful 14 year old daughter named Destiny. I have being wanting to do a blog for awhile. I have been drawn to it, especially self love. I feel like we don’t love ourselves enough. And, that mental health is a huge area that we ignore ( we are getting better) but not even close to where we need to be. This is something I’m beyond passionate about. I want to share my story, self love, and positivity.

I’m so excited to launch my new Blog.

” Your biggest commitment must always be to yourself.”                                                 Bridget Devoue